HIS DREAM

“I thought I was in a barren, uninhabited country, apparently between sundown and dark - neither night nor day. The air appeared rather chilly; but not so cold as mid-winter, but like its beginning. I thought it stormed, but not severely: it appeared to me like a mixture of snow and rain. There appeared to be some wind, yet not a gale; and everything wore a gloomy aspect, yet I could not tell why. I seemed to be in danger, yet I knew of no danger. I thought I had two companions: one a Baptist minister, the other a Universalist. They had hold one of each arm, and were compelling me to come along, as though we were in great danger, and were fleeing for life. After travelling a northern course for some time, I inquired where we were. They said, ‘Near home.’ I thought they then took an eastward course, and came to a little spot of woods, consisting of small evergreen trees, about fifteen feet high. They then let go their hold of me, and lay down under these trees. I told them that I would not stay there. I then started, and they followed. Our course was then circuitous, from west to south and east, through a barren, level country, with nothing to be seen but now and then a bush. After travelling for some time, we came in sight of a row of lights in the south-east, like a village light in the night. We steered our course for the lights, and soon came to a highway, running north and south. While we were consulting which road to take, there came down two women from the north, until they came against us. I then inquired of them where we were. They made no answer, but turned about, and went back. I here left my companions, and followed these women. We had not gone far before we came to an old log-house that stood by the wayside, into which they entered, and I followed, where I found a small fire, and attempted to warm myself; but, while I was thus warming myself, seeing some suspicious looks in the countenances of those present, I cast my eye around to see the cause, and beheld a great beast, like a bear, gnashing his teeth and growling at me. I started back to the other side of the house at the sight. I looked, and saw a chain fastened to the logs of the house and around his neck. I next saw a small dog, set on by one present, running around the bear, and barking at him. He soon caught the dog in his mouth, when a person present, in endeavoring to release the dog, got his hand caught between the teeth of the bear. I then looked for a weapon to relieve the person thus situated, and found a club about three feet long, with which I struck the bear on the head, and delivered the man. The bear then came at me, in a rage: The club now became a man’s arm, with a hand having ten fingers, and those very long. With this I kept the bear off, and soon got out of the house and ran with all my might towards the north. After climbing a steep hill until I was weary, I sat down, when a person came to me, and informed me if I would follow him he would lead me out of danger. I followed him, and, after travelling up hill some time, we came to a small house, where we went in, and found a number of women spinning and making garments. After some conversation, my guide told me I must go on. We then went out, and followed the same northern course until we descended the hill, and came to a large, low, old house, where we went in, and saw a large number of people, of all ages and sexes. There appeared to be a man present, who went to each one of these, and whispered in their ears. All appeared solemn and silent. He came to me, and whispered in my ears, ‘Love God and your neighbor,’ and told me to remember it. I thought I told him to write it on my heart. He said he would repeat it, and that I should not forget it. He did so, and left me. Here I had peculiar feelings. I found I had broken these two great commands all my life. It seemed as though I had never loved God or my neighbor. My whole life looked like a catalogue of crime; and if ever I had any repentance, I had it there. (O, my God! why not grant me such repentance when awake?) It was unmixed with any pride or thoughts of carnal things. I remembered all my sins, as I thought, and they looked exceeding sinful. If David felt as I then did, I do not wonder that he cried out, ‘Against Thee, and Thee only have I sinned.’ I thought that then my guide gave me a staff, and told me I must travel.MWM 85.4

“I went out of the house, and, looking every way, to see which way I should go, I saw to the northward many roads branching off in different ways. While I was considering, I saw many people, young and old, come out of the house, and run in these roads. I then saw that the roads were wide, and well trod. I then thought of the broad way mentioned in the Scriptures, and turned away, determining within myself not to go therein. I then looked to the south, and saw a few people come out of the house, and one by one take a south-east course, and follow each other in a direct line, until I lost sight of them. While I stood thinking of them, I heard a voice, as from above, saying, ‘This is the way; walk ye in it.’ Although I saw no path, I followed the same course, and soon came to a strait way, cast up with two gulfs on either side. The path was marked with footsteps indented into the earth as deep as a shoe, and only wide enough for these tracks, one before the other, in a straight line. I soon overtook some travelling the same road, and one old man, apparently ninety or one hundred years of age, bowed down to the earth, and withered up. He appeared to be praising God that he had mercy on such an old, dry stick, while thousands younger were left to go in the broad way. I thought my road became more rugged, although the steps continued. When I came to any of these places, by setting my staff down it became long or short, as occasion might require, and I could step up or down with ease. My way was principally in the ascent until I came to a precipice. I could look down and see the steps below; but how to get down I could not tell. While standing here the voice again spake: ‘Pride must be humbled.’ I then had a view of my proud heart, and all my ways seemed as though they were full of that sin. Even my devotions were nothing but pride; and in the bitterness of my soul I cried out: ‘True, I am a proud, haughty wretch!’ I then put my staff down the precipice, and it became a guide-pole, so that I, by clasping both my hands round it, slipped down, and then went on until I came to a low piece of wet ground. Here I lost my tracks, and while I was looking to find my way, the voice I had heard before again spoke: ‘The way is marked with blood.’ I then felt surprised that I had not remembered it. I then looked around to find the blood, and, looking a little way before me, I saw a rail-fence, and, stepping up to it, found a streak of blood from the top to the bottom, about two inches wide. I clasped it in my hands, and cried, ‘This is the blood of my Saviour!’ While in this situation I heard a voice as of a rushing wind. I looked up, and there was a small cloud over my head; and it began to sprinkle like great drops of rain. I looked on my hands and clothes, and saw great drops of blood. I heard the voice again saying: ‘This is the blood of sprinkling, that speaketh better things than the blood of Abel.’ I now had a view of the blood of Christ, its effects, and the great love wherewith he loved us. My mind, which all along had been more or less troubled, by fears and doubts, now became calm and serene, and, like Job, I could say, ‘I know my Redeemer liveth.’ My hard heart melted within me, and ran out with pure love to Christ. While in this ecstasy of mind, I looked up and saw a beam of wood, extending from east to west. I thought the voice said: ‘Behold the cross!’ I again looked down, and was wondering within myself what these things could mean, when the voice said: ‘Garments rolled in blood.’ I again looked up, and saw as it had been a cloak dipped in blood, hanging over the beam, fourteen or fifteen feet high.MWM 87.1

“My feelings while viewing these things I cannot describe; but it now became light, and I saw the sun as if about three hours’ high in the morning. I then travelled on the same strait way to the south-east, as before, with this difference - only the streak of blood now marked my path. After travelling some time I came to a large house. It now appeared to be night. I went in, and saw many people there. The house extended from west to east, through the centre of which was a long hall, lighted up with lamps on each side; and on each side of this hall doors opened into small apartments like bed-rooms. I here found my former guide, who informed me that I must travel through this hall. He also gave me a little book, ^{1Mr. Miller never regarded this dream as at all ominous; and yet, through life, it often recurred to his mind. On the occasion of his first visit to Boston, he was presented with a small Polyglot Bible, which strongly reminded him of the book given him in his dream, and like that he made it his pocket companion.} and said that that would direct me. He then cautioned me to ‘beware of the buttery.’ ^{2This is a very obscure phrase in the connection, unless it is to guard against the pleasures of the world.} I put the book into my pocket, and walked through. As I passed along, the doors on each side of the hall would open, and spirits, as it then appeared to me, would brush by me, and try to force me into these rooms. I kept right straight forward till I came to the east end of the room. Here I found two closed doors, and while I stood considering which door to enter, one of them opened and discovered to me a room filled with all the dainties man could wish to eat or drink; and some persons in the room invited me to enter. I was at a loss what to do; but, remembering the caution I had, I put my hand in my pocket to find my little book. I pulled out one, and found it was not the same, and so I threw it down, and pulled out two more, one after the other, and threw them down also. ^{3When he first saw Dr. Dowling’s work - Miller Used up for a Shilling - and other similar works, he was forcibly reminded of those spurious books which he threw away in his dream. He considered the little guide-book of more consequence than all these.} I then pulled out the one that had been given me, and, on opening it, I read Isaiah 48:17, - ‘Thus saith the Lord, thy Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel; I am the Lord thy God which teacheth thee to profit, which leadeth thee by the way that thou shouldest go.’ The other door then opened, and I saw a dark, winding stairway. On the bottom lay a young child. I took it up, and reached it back to some that stood behind me. They refused to take it. I then laid it down again, and stepped in. All was dark and gloomy as the door of death. I remembered no more until I arrived at the top of the stairs, where I found myself, as I then thought, in an upper room, filled with the purest light that my eyes had ever beheld. ^{1The finding himself at the top of the stairs was a source of great consolation to him; and he often referred to it, in connection with the impression that he had, that, if called to the world of spirits, when absent from the body he should be present with the Lord. He had a desire to live till the Lord’s coming, but would refer to this “upper room,” as a very desirable place to spend the time before the resurrection, if he should not live till that event; and this, he thought, was designed to teach him that he should not, and to comfort him, in view of the prospect of death.} I looked for the cause - there was none. The light was brighter than the brightest rays of the sun; yet it did not dazzle - it was as soft and easy to behold as the morning tints. The room appeared to be arched, yet I could not discover its height. The floor appeared like crystal glass, very thick, yet it did not restrain the sight, for I could see all below. The room extended from east to west. On each hand was a walk, on which I saw many walking. I was directed to walk with them, when I found that they were singing. The only words I could recollect were, ‘Hallelujah to the Lamb!’ The music was soft, and sweet; it fell on the ear without any jar or pain. I beheld many persons that I knew, - the old man that I had seen before. I congratulated him on his safe arrival at last. I heard him sing. No silent one was there. I thought of the love they had one for another. I thought I felt its flame - its pure, un-adulterated love. No mixture of self beyond another. I saw persons of all denominations of Christians, yet all distinctions were taken away. Here was a communion indeed - here was no ennui - no hatred - no selfish principles to build up - no evil thoughts - nothing to hurt or annoy. (O! ye selfish votaries, could you but see this happy throng, you would cover your faces with shame; you would hide yourselves, if possible, from the face of the Lamb, and Him that sitteth on the throne.) I felt myself free from every clog, and all my soul was swallowed up in this celestial throng. I then thought it was a dream - a slight and disagreeable feeling passed over my mind, to think I must return and experience again the woes of life. I shuddered at the thought, and then awoke.”MWM 88.1

By the following lines, written by Mr. Miller at the place of his birth, it appears that he visited the old homestead in Pittsfield, Mass., in 1827, - the lines being dated Oct. 16th of that year. They are an Acrostic on his own name, and are given, more as a memento of the past, than for any poetic merit. He must have been at this time forty-five years old.MWM 91.1

“Why was I here the light brought to behold? Inconstant life here first her pulses told; Life’s blood here through my veins began to flow; Lo! here began my pilgrimage below; I here first lisped with infant’s prattling tongue, And here heard mother’s ‘hush-a-baby’ song. Murmuring, this pebbly brook taught me to play.MWM 91.2

Meandering stream, by thee I used to stray; In thee first saw the playful silvery fish; Learnt here t’express the infant’s simple wish, Love, hope, and joy. I here my days began; Even here the broomstick rode, the circle ran; Rejoiced and prattled here to mimic man.”MWM 91.3

In the winter of 1828, the church in Low Hampton, of which Mr. Miller was a member, was refreshed by an out-pouring of the Holy Spirit. In a letter, dated March 12, written to Elder Hendryx, to whom reference has before been made, Mr. Miller says: “One young man came to my house last night, after nine o’clock, to request prayers. He said he had been eight years under conviction, and appeared to be almost in despair. I thought I could say to him, as did John the Baptist to his disciples: ‘Behold the Lamb of God, that taketh away the sin of the world!’ Twelve or fourteen requested prayers last Sunday evening. It is really the work of the Lord. I never lived in a reformation so general, so solemn, and with so little noise. Surely, we have reason to rejoice and be glad. The Lord has remembered the low state of his people, and hath come down to deliver. Two of my children, William and Bellona, as I have a good degree of hope, are subjects of grace. Pray for us.”MWM 91.4

In the same letter he makes mention of trials, as well as blessings. He says: “On Saturday, the first day of March, our meeting-house was consumed by fire. We should have almost despaired of ever building again, had not the Lord visited us by his grace, and likewise opened the hearts of our Christian friends from abroad. $400 have been subscribed from the adjoining towns. There is now some prospect that we shall build. You know we are weak in numbers. We are really so in resources. I must bend my whole force to gain the above-mentioned object.”MWM 91.5

Mr. Miller succeeded in the accomplishment of his wishes, assisting according to his ability and known liberality.MWM 92.1

He continued to make the Bible his daily study, and became more and more convinced that he had a personal duty to perform respecting what he conceived the Bible to teach of the nearness of the Advent. These impressions he thus describes:MWM 92.2

“When I was about my business, it was continually ringing in my ears, ‘Go and tell the world of their danger.’ This text was constantly occurring to me: ‘When I say unto the wicked, O wicked man, thou shalt surely die; if thou dost not speak to warn the wicked from his way, that wicked man shall die in his iniquity; but his blood will I require at thy hand. Nevertheless, if thou warn the wicked of his way to turn from it; if he do not turn from his way, he shall die in his iniquity; but thou hast delivered thy soul.’ - Ezekiel 33:8, 9. I felt that, if the wicked could be effectually warned, multitudes of them would repent; and that, if they were not warned, their blood might be required at my hand. I did all I could to avoid the conviction that anything was required of me; and I thought that by freely speaking of it to all, I should perform my duty, and that God would raise up the necessary instrumentality for the accomplishment of the work. I prayed that some minister might see the truth, and devote himself to its promulgation; but still it was impressed upon me, ‘Go and tell it to the world: their blood will I require at thy hand.’ The more I presented it in conversation, the more dissatisfied I felt with myself for withholding it from the public. I tried to excuse myself to the Lord for not going out and proclaiming it to the world. I told the Lord that I was not used to public speaking; that I had not the necessary qualifications to gain the attention of an audience; that I was very diffident, and feared to go before the world; that they would ‘not believe me nor hearken to my voice;’ that I was ‘slow of speech, and of a slow tongue.’ But I could get no relief.”MWM 92.3

In this way he struggled on for nine years longer, pursuing the study of the Bible, doing all he could to present the nearness of Christ’s coming to those whom circumstances threw in his way; but resisting his impressions of duty to go out as a public teacher. He was then fifty years old, and it seemed impossible for him to surmount the obstacles which lay in his path, to successfully present it in a public manner.MWM 92.4

His freedom to converse on the subject, and the ability with which he was able to defend his own views, and oppose those differing from him, had given him no little celebrity in his denomination in all that region; and some were rather shy in approaching him. Elder T. Hendryx, a Baptist clergyman now in the State of Pennsylvania, who has kindly furnished the biographer with many original letters from Mr. Miller, thus speaks of his first acquaintance with him:MWM 93.1

“My first acquaintance with Brother Miller was in the summer of 1831. I had been requested to visit the Baptist church in Hampton, and concluded to go. When about to start, I was informed by a brother in the church of which I was a member, in Salem, N. Y., that there was a brother in the Hampton church, possessing considerable influence, who had many curious notions on doctrinal points, and on the prophecies, - particularly on the latter; and also (to use the brother’s language) that he was ‘hard on ministers who differed with him.’ Having recently commenced preaching, without much confidence in my own ability, and not having made any engagement to the church, I at first almost concluded not to go. On further reflection I decided to go, and put my trust in Him, who had said, ‘Lo, I am with you always.’ On my way, I endeavored, by prayer and meditation, to divest myself of all prejudice against his peculiar notions, whatever they might be (for as yet I was ignorant of them), and at the same time to fortify myself against being led into error by him. I arrived at Bro. Miller’s on the 6th of July, 1831. You may well suppose that my situation was not very enviable. I moved tremblingly and with the utmost caution. In spite of me, I could not act like myself; and it was not till I had been there nearly a week, and preached several discourses, that I could feel at home, or enjoy my wonted freedom in preaching the word. Several other ministering brethren visited at Bro. M.’s during my stay there, and I found that I was not altogether alone in those feelings. But how perfectly groundless those fears! Instead of pouncing upon my errors like the tiger, no brother ever dealt with me more tenderly, or exhibited a better spirit in presenting his views.MWM 93.2

“After being with Bro. M. some time, he asked me my views on the millennium. Having thrown off all reserve, I readily gave them. I had embraced the old view - the world’s conversion a thousand years before the advent; and answered him accordingly. His reply was: ‘Well, Bro. H., prove it! You know I want Bible for all that I receive.’ ‘Well,’ said I; and, taking my Bible, I turned to the 20th of Rev., and was about to read, when I thought I would examine it again, and with very close attention. I was in a deep study. Bro. M. was waiting and watching me closely. He began to smile. ‘Why don’t you read, Bro. H.?’ said he. I was astonished; for I could not make it out. At last I said: ‘I go home next Monday. I will draw the passages off, and hand them to you when I return.’ I took some four days for it, and gave him a long list of passages. He read them, and said: ‘Bro. H., what has become of your old theory? This is mine.’ ‘Well,’ said I, ‘it is mine, too.’ In my examination, my ‘theory’ had been overturned, and I came out where I now stand.MWM 94.1

“One thing I observed in Bro. M.’s character: If he ever dealt harshly with a brother for holding an error, it was because he saw, or thought he saw, a spirit of self-importance in him.”MWM 94.2

The labors of Elder Hendryx were attended with a blessing as appears from a letter of Mr. Miller’s to him, dated August 9, 1831. In it he says: “The Lord is pouring out his Spirit among us, but not in so powerful a manner as I could wish. Baptism has been administered every Sabbath but one since you were here. Two or three have obtained hope every week.”MWM 94.3

As Mr. Miller’s opinions respecting the nearness and nature of the millennium became known, they naturally elicited a good deal of comment among his friends and neighbors, and also among those at a distance. Some of their remarks, not the most complimentary to his sanity, would occasionally be repeated to him.MWM 94.4

Having heard that a physician in his neighborhood had said, “Esquire Miller,” as he was familiarly called, “was a fine man and a good neighbor, but was a monomaniac on the subject of the advent,” Mr. M. was humorously inclined to let him prescribe for his case.MWM 94.5

One of his children being sick one day, he sent for the doctor, who, after prescribing for the child, noticed that Mr. Miller was very mute in one corner, and asked what ailed him.MWM 95.1

“Well, I hardly know, doctor. I want you to see what does, and prescribe for me.”MWM 95.2

The doctor felt of his pulse, etc., and could not decide respecting his malady; and inquired what he supposed was his complaint.MWM 95.3

“Well,” says Mr. Miller, “I don’t know but I am a monomaniac; and I want you to examine me, and see if I am; and, if so, cure me. Can you tell when a man is a monomaniac?”MWM 95.4

The doctor blushed, and said he thought he could.MWM 95.5

Mr. Miller wished to know how.MWM 95.6

“Why,” said the doctor, “a monomaniac is rational on all subjects but one; and, when you touch that particular subject, he will become raving.”MWM 95.7

“Well,” says Mr. Miller, “I insist upon it that you see whether I am in reality a monomaniac; and if I am, you shall prescribe for and cure me. You shall, therefore, sit down with me two hours, while I present the subject of the advent to you, and, if I am a monomaniac, by that time you will discover it.”MWM 95.8

The doctor was somewhat disconcerted; but Mr. Miller insisted, and told him, as it was to present the state of his mind, he might charge for his time as in regular practice.MWM 95.9

The doctor finally consented; and, at Mr. Miller’s request, opened the Bible and read from the 8th of Daniel. As he read along, Mr. Miller inquired what the ram denoted, with the other symbols presented. The doctor had read Newton, and applied them to Persia, Greece, and Rome, as Mr. Miller did.MWM 95.10

Mr. Miller then inquired how long the vision of those empires was to be.MWM 95.11

“2,300 days.”MWM 95.12

“What!” said Mr. Miller, “could those great empires cover only 2300 literal days?”MWM 96.1

“Why,” said the doctor, “those days are years, according to all commentators; and those kingdoms are to continue 2300 years.”MWM 96.2

Mr. M. then asked him to turn to the 2nd of Daniel, and to the 7th; all of which he explained the same as Mr. Miller. He was then asked if he knew when the 2300 days would end. He did not know, as he could not tell when they commenced.MWM 96.3

Mr. Miller told him to read the 9th of Daniel. He read down till he came to the 21st verse, when Daniel saw “the man Gabriel,” whom he had “seen in the vision.”MWM 96.4

“In what vision?” Mr. Miller inquired.MWM 96.5

“Why,” said the doctor, “in the vision of the 8th of Daniel.”MWM 96.6

“‘Wherefore, understand the matter and consider the vision.’ He had now come, then, to make him understand that vision, had he?”MWM 96.7

“Yes,” said the doctor.MWM 96.8

“Well, seventy weeks are determined; what are these seventy weeks a part of?”MWM 96.9

“Of the 2300 days.”MWM 96.10

“Then do they begin with the 2300 days?”MWM 96.11

“Yes,” said the doctor.MWM 96.12

“When did they end?”MWM 96.13

“In A. D. 33.”MWM 96.14

“Then how far would the 2300 extend after 33?”MWM 96.15

The doctor subtracted 490 from 2300, and replied, 1810. “Why,” said he, “that is past.”MWM 96.16

“But,” said Mr. Miller, “there were 1810 from 33; in what year would that come?”MWM 96.17

The doctor saw at once that the 33 should be added, and set down 33 and 1810, and, adding them, replied, 1843.MWM 96.18

At this unexpected result the doctor settled back in his chair and colored; but immediately took his hat and left the house in a rage.MWM 96.19

The next day he again called on Mr. Miller, and looked as though he had been in the greatest mental agony.MWM 96.20

“Why, Mr. Miller,” said he, “I am going to hell. I have not slept a wink since I was here yesterday. I have looked at the question in every light, and the vision must terminate about A. D. 1843; and I am unprepared, and must go to hell.”MWM 96.21

Mr. Miller calmed him, and pointed him to the ark of safety; and in about a week, calling each day on Mr. M., he found peace to his soul, and went on his way rejoicing, as great a monomaniac as Mr. Miller. He afterwards acknowledged that, till he made the figures 1843, he had no idea of the result to which he was coming.MWM 97.1