Ms 136, 1905

A Prayer for Help

NP

March 3, 1905

Previously unpublished.

The past night has been a very trying one for me. I could not sleep after half-past eleven. I rose at two o’clock and presented my case before the Lord, and with all my heart prayer for the healing power of God, that the infirmities which are keeping me from the work which burdens my mind may be removed. I must have the power that Thou, my Saviour, hast promised to give us in the great work to be done. My strength is gone, my courage weak. I long after the great medical missionary Worker. Strengthen my courage, Lord, for I fear lest in my weakness I shall fail where I should make a success. O Lord, Thou hast made me Thy messenger. Thou hast laid upon me great responsibilities. My soul is grieved because of my physical weakness. Thou hast commissioned me to speak the words that Thou hast given me, and to declare the things that Thou hast shown me. I am trying to do this. I am trying to bear the messages of reproof, warning, and encouragement, but I have little hope that those who are departing from the faith will heed the message.20LtMs, Ms 136, 1905, par. 1

Grant, O Lord, that I may be truly strong in the strength that Thou dost give, that I may clearly present the message given, that those who are out of the way may be convicted and led to follow in the way that Thou dost lead. I must have physical strength in order to carry these heavy burdens. I must have a daily sense of Thy favor. I hunger and thirst after Thy righteousness.20LtMs, Ms 136, 1905, par. 2

I am relieved. Praise the Lord. Praise the Lord, O my soul. I am rejoicing in the peace of Christ. Hope is strengthening me. I feel that this day will not be as many days during the past week have been, when I have been oppressed with a tired brain and a burdened heart. Show me Thy way, O my God. I thank Thee that peace and courage has come to me.20LtMs, Ms 136, 1905, par. 3