April 1 and 2 Mother seemed to be failing rapidly. Sabbath she rallied, and in the afternoon spoke encouraging words to my children. Sunday and Monday she seemed to be gaining strength, but lost ground the next few days.PUR April 29, 1915, par. 1

On Sabbath, April 10, there was another revival of strength. In the afternoon she said to me, “I am thankful that I have not much suffering. We shall all be home very soon now.”PUR April 29, 1915, par. 2

Wednesday evening, after I had prayed for her, she prayed, “Lord, we thank Thee for blessing in thought. We thank Thee for peace and confidence.”PUR April 29, 1915, par. 3

When told of the messages of love from many friends, she said, “Tell them I am doing well.”PUR April 29, 1915, par. 4

During the three following days she was weaker than at any time since the accident, and on Sabbath was not able to carry any conversation until evening. Then I told her of the blessings bestowed upon the meetings held at the St. Helena Sanitarium by Elder Meade Macguire, and she said, “Thank the Lord for His blessing.” When I asked if she was comfortable, she said, “I am not suffering very much. I am thankful that things are as well as they are.”PUR April 29, 1915, par. 5

Sunday evening, April 18, Mother was sitting in her big bay window, with a copy of “Desire of Ages” in her hands. I sat down beside her and spoke of the precious truths which the book contained, and of the good being accomplished by it and her other books in bringing souls to Christ. I told her that her books are circulated more and more. To this she replied: “Keep it up, keep it up. Do not be discouraged. Do what you know to be right, though others may object. I want the truth to stand out in its beauty. I get terribly tired of nonentities. Let us not serve the devil in that way.PUR April 29, 1915, par. 6

“I do not say that I am perfect, but I am trying to be perfect. I do not expect others to be perfect; and if I could not associate with my brothers and sisters who are not perfect, I do not know what I should do.PUR April 29, 1915, par. 7

“I try to treat the matter the best that I can, and am thankful that I have a spirit of uplifting and not a spirit of crushing down. Yes, I am going to make that appear just as much as possible. No one is perfect. If one were perfect, he would be prepared for heaven. As long as we are not perfect, we have a work to do to get ready to be perfect. We have a mighty Saviour.”PUR April 29, 1915, par. 8

In answer to the question if she had had a comfortable day, she said,“I can not say that I have been uncomfortable. I am very thankful the day has passed so pleasantly.PUR April 29, 1915, par. 9

“I am going to keep my mind as much as ever I can on the prominent things of eternal life. They are not dwelt upon enough. I rejoice that I have that faith that takes hold of the promises of God, that works by love and sanctifies the soul. A sanctified soul will not blunder a great deal. It will not keep talking, talking, talking about what this one should do, and what that one should do. The Lord wants us each to do all we possibly can, and fight the good fight of faith. That is what I mean to do. I will not give up to a mind of despondency.”PUR April 29, 1915, par. 10

After prayer, she said,“I try to keep my eyes fixed upon the blessings, fixed upon that to which I wish to be conformed. Let us think and talk more of the things that pertain to salvation. Thus we can be a help and a blessing to others.”PUR April 29, 1915, par. 11

During Monday and Tuesday, April 19 and 20, Mother seemed stronger than for a week or two; but Wednesday she was very feeble again. Thursday noon she said to me:PUR April 29, 1915, par. 12

“Last night I feared I should have a hard time. But that is past now. How are the meetings progressing?”I told her that we had a good meeting at the Sanitarium Chapel last night. Then she said:“How easy it would be for the enemy to come in and secure a victory here when there is no need of it. Every foot of ground that we gain is valuable to the work. If we all lay hold of the right line, and hold on with faith, we shall see a good work accomplished.”PUR April 29, 1915, par. 13

Those who know her experience feel that the Lord is very merciful to Mother, in that she suffers so little, and in that her courage and faith are steadfast.PUR April 29, 1915, par. 14

April 23.

W. C. White

April 15, 1915

June 24, 1915