Ms 178, 1901
Remarks at Meeting of Cal. M. M. & B. Assn.
San Francisco, California
October 1, 1901
Previously unpublished.
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Sister White stated she had written some things upon the matter that none of the members of the board knew about.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 12
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They know as a whole?16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 14
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What other thing has been planned; has any plan—we have plead with you to remain. But I should not speak. I should let this meeting go right on. I did not come to speak in it, not at present.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 16
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I would like to say a few words—perhaps it would be best for me to say a few words. I have borne my testimony to Brother Sanderson of the dangers of himself and his wife, and the possibilities before him and his wife if they come in right relation to the Lord, and that He would work for them; and we tried to help him all we could, and there were some things that were mentioned that needed another physician—one physician in the sanitarium was not sufficient—to be supplied with young boys. That they needed influential persons in a sanitarium that was empowered, or felt in that condition of responsibility that they could speak with the physician, and they could tell him that he was making mistakes, and he could speak with them if he saw they were making mistakes. It is a mutual thing—that they understand how to deal with the many minds that they have to deal with at that sanitarium. It was in God’s order that there should be one that should stand right by his side, just as it is given here; that was the testimony that I had to bear, just the first time I conversed with him; that there should be a firm management, and there should be a physician in the institution besides himself. I mentioned these things. It has not been anything that has come since I left Australia, but it is the view that has been presented to me of the sanitariums before I left Australia, and the lacks and the necessities. And I have sent them to the different institutions as they have been presented to me at the Battle Creek institution and at the other institution; but they did not take it that they must put in their resignation because some errors had been pointed out for them to correct. They did not do that. But they sent me words of expression—they were so grateful that I had pointed them out, and they would work to the point. I might mention names, but I do not think it is best. Some of the very best ones. In other institutions the same. The publishing institution and other institutions and various responsibilities. And I saw that the thing was not understood; that the thing was not taken right; that there was not a discernment of what was comprehended in it. And it has caused me a great deal of suffering of heart and mind, to think it was so hard to get anything understood that would change the order of things, and I have tried to lay it out in the very best manner that I could. And my brethren did not know what I have written, because I have not presented it before them, but I am willing that they should see a copy of all that I have written, everything. And if they can say that I have been unmerciful or hard or unjust in any of these things, why, I want them to speak; or if it is so dark that they cannot comprehend it, I want them to say so. I do not say that it is. I say that the very best results, wherever Dr. Sanderson will go, is to give to it every word of that testimony, and live right up to it; and when he does that, not to think that he has nothing to change, but to take right hold of it like a sensible man and to correct errors. And then to reach just as high a standard as he can possibly reach. That is what God wants every one of us to do; and I laid that out because that is my work; that is the work that God has appointed me to do, and it would not be proper for any other one to come in and say things that I have said. They should take no kind of excuse to say just what I have said, because the Lord has presented to me the inner workings of matters and the results, and for pushing or trying to get Brother Sanderson out of his place, I have told him that I thought if he were yoked with other physicians—for that is the way it was presented to me—if he could yoke up with other physicians; if he could not yoke up with them here, yoke up with them where they are, and let him be learning something else besides what comes to his mind, and what was his mind and his ways, and it would be for the greatest advantage to him, and then, why he might be fitted for the position. But the plea has been made, he has been there ten years. Well, it is time he was emptied from vessel to vessel, if he has not come up to the very position that God wants him to come up to. That is how the matter stands in the case with me. I have just as tender feelings toward Dr. Sanderson. I have not slept night after night—it has been nigh onto two weeks that I have not slept past 2 o’clock, or 1 o’clock at night, and one night at 12, and that case has been on me so that every breath was a groan. Why? Because he was so wicked?—No. Not at all. But because he could not perceive what he might be. What it is his privilege to be; what God could do with him if he would only just understand it himself; and, if he could not understand here, he better go somewhere where another condition of things and another atmosphere would be around his soul and that he could discern. Then by the power of influence he could discern what the path was. And it is for his interest to be in that position that he can see where he can reach a higher standard. Now there is the whole beginning and end of it. And I said to him and his wife what I had written to them and to her, God wants her to be converted and stand by the side of her husband, and that they should labor together, and that they should have an influence in the work and cause of God. Well, was not that what I wrote, Brother Sanderson?16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 33
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And I have said it to you too, and I have felt an intense interest from the first that I came into that Sanitarium. I cannot describe it [as] anything more than the yearning influence that I have had for my own sons; that I have had for Edson; that I have had for Willie. And Edson has a pile of letters that high that I have written, and written, and written what God wanted him to do; what he must do.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 35
Well, he could not realize it until the power of God got hold of him and he saw it. Oh, said he, now I take those letters, said he; why they seem to burn right into my soul like a fire, says he; I see it now, but I did not see it then. And, that is my work. It is not to tell Brother Sanderson everything you have done is all just right—it is just right, and to daub [it] with untempered mortar. God wants a man to be in a position where the Holy Spirit of God can work with him, and that he knows it. And it is these things that I have written to my own people. Yes, to my own husband, and to my whole family and, no matter who it is, I have the testimony to bear just as it has been laid open before me, and that is what I have tried to lay open. Nothing of my feelings. I have nothing as far as Dr. Sanderson and I are concerned; there has been the most perfect harmony and respect and love—the love of Jesus Christ between him and me. I know not one thing that he has every said or done, or that I have said or done to him personally. Is there Dr. Sanderson?16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 36
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Not a thing, but to make it understood and you know that I am not his enemy, I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know how to do it. It is beyond my ken. I cannot do it. We have got souls to save or lose; and if I should repress anything that God has opened before me, don’t you see what a responsibility would be upon my soul? Why, I should feel if they should stumble and fall, why you did not do your duty to him—you did not do it. And then, when I do my duty and it has the opposite effect from what God wants it to have and what I wanted it to have, why then I don’t know what I am going to do with that.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 38
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Yes; but if you had understood it, and had been going right on in that way, Brother Sanderson, it would make you guilty. As you have not understood it, and have done the best you thought that you knew how, and yet was not the best thing to do, and the Lord in His mercy tells you what is the best thing to do, that you are making a mistake, and that mistake is leaving impressions on the institutions that He doesn’t want to make, and there is no need of your making them if you come into a position that He wants you to come. That is how it is. We don’t want to hurt, nor wound, nor bruise your soul. We don’t want to do that, but we do not want you to take a position that you will always regret. You may not now, but the time will come when you will regret it.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 40
I have things written out which I will in the future, as soon as I can get it copied, I will let you have a copy of what the Lord expects of all who labor in the Sanitarium. And it is there that their influence is to tell on all classes of people. And in the past Dr. Kellogg has been just as faithful, just as thankful that I would point right out to him, You should not have done that, you should not have spoken that, you should not have done this thing, and he would send right back, I ought not to have done it and I will take it right back. Well, again, and again, and again that testimony came, and finally he stood up. Said he, It is Sister White’s testimonies that have made me what I am—if I can have any influence. Said he, She has bound me right about by the Lord’s restrictions, and then encouraged me. Said he, It is that. And when his mother died, said he, You are the only mother I have got. Well, that is the work that I have had all the way along. I have not begun to talk to you in these things as the Lord has opened it in years past to talk to Dr. Kellogg in regard to certain courses and influences that were hurting him, and that he should not do it, and that is the only thing that has saved him, is the testimonies. Because he did not believe, he did not consider that it was so until it was laid right out before him, and he did believe the testimonies. I feel an intense interest for every soul. I carry them—once their case is presented to me—I carry them on my soul day and night. And considered and pray, and that is why there have been two weeks—there has only been one night out of two weeks that I have slept after 2:30 o’clock; but it has been praying to God in agony—that my soul has been in agony, and it has been so in the case of Dr. Sanderson and his wife. For I could see what they could be, but what they would be, if they carried themselves right in their own hands. And that has led me to write quite fully. And yet it has not all gone to them yet. And yet I have waited to see how matters would turn. I have written them about it. I had said enough before writing.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 41
I should not have come here at all today, only I thought there might be some points misunderstood or something that I might say. I did not come for any controversy, for God’s Spirit does not want me to have any controversy with anybody, only to bear my testimony; but if there were anything misunderstood that I could help to have it understood, I would do so, but to have controversy, I have been forbidden to have any controversy with any one. Bear your testimony clear and just as I give it to you, and it is not your business to try to make any one believe it. That is not your work. And that is the only way that was ever presented to me that I could save my life. Because I felt so intensely over these cases; but that I must leave it with the Lord and have no controversy over it. I had done my duty and leave it there.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 42
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Have you them with you?16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 44
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Recently I sent something to Dr. Kellogg just as I had it. That is, just a day or two ago. He wrote something about—telling me—speaking how intensely he felt about the matter. He has been one that is the very best friend you have got in the world. He has just wanted that you could develop and he has had an intense interest; he has never spoken one word to your demerit, not one word.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 46
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I wish you had them all. I am very sorry that you did not bring the last one (reading):16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 48
“To the Managers of the Saint Helena Sanitarium:—I am impressed that the time has come to say something in regard to the Sanitarium at St. Helena. There is need of the vivifying power of the Holy Spirit being felt throughout the institution. Much has been presented to me during the last fifteen years in regard to this institution, and this I have written out plainly and clearly in many communications. I have a pile of letters I think that deep that I have written in regard to the Sanitarium. ... Its history has been presented to me, and I have written to Dr. Sanderson in reference to its management. I am surprised that he says he has not had it, and I know it is among my writings somewhere, but I have not had time to look it up.”16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 49
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“He has not shown wisdom ...” (continuing).16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 51
In regard to Sister Mary Sanderson and the other physicians, Sister Mary Sanderson especially would be of great use to the institution were she humble before God—a great blessing. But there is this pride, and not submissive to the will of God.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 52
Now I did not expect, you know, to come [to] this meeting, Brother Sanderson. I told Willie I was not going to this meeting. I expected to make a stay perhaps over the Sabbath and speak to the people. If I had expected to have attended this meeting, I should have brought the letters along.16LtMs, Ms 178, 1901, par. 53
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